no use now

It's no use now regretting a bad professional decision i made in january. Okay, I messed up and am unhappy now. So what? I am not going to call my boss and ask for my job back. It'll be too embarassing to face him and all my old co-workers again after that. So,
I made a mistake, so I will learn from it. And now I will move on. I must. There's no use thinking about it now......

On a happier note, I may be able to forget about all this by moving abroad. In less than 24 hours I'll find out if I got accepted to graduate school abroad. I am crossing my fingers and praying...
I want this so so so so bad....the last few days I've realized how much MORE i want this.
I've been waiting for this chance for two years...and if I don't get it now, I don't think I ever will.

Please....universe...just let this one work out....

i fucked up

i fucked up! i fucked up so bad!

how could i have fucked up my professional life so badly!!

I want my old job back. I messed up. I am wanting to go crawling back to my boss and beg for my old job back because I FUCKED UP

I did not know a good thing when I had it
Now its gone forever and there's no way to get it back
And its all because of me. I did this all to myself

$5 subway sandwiches

woo hoo! i must take advantage of this deal as long as it lasts.
i spend $2.50 for lunch and then $2.50 for dinner, eating a six inch for each meal. its also super healthy. i also walked for two hours today so i feel great.

Is it worth it to get advice from people?

Why do I bother getting advice from people who don't have my best interest at heart?
For example, when I was asking for job advice from someone close to me Irealized i shouldn't have listened to them. They wanted me to change jobs not because thats what wasbest for me but because they were tired of me complaining about my current job. They didn't want to listen to me whine. Where infact, now that i think about it, i should have stayed my old job because it was better pay and better benefits and a more professional environment.

So....from now on, I have decided to listen to myself. Listen to my heart. If that was what I had done in the first place, I wouldn't be in the mess I am in right now. I know what is best for me. I just have to search deep down inside myself to find it. I just have to take a moment to look learn to trust myself, because obviously, listening to other people has not helped my situation at all.

I hate my car!

I hate my expensive car! The payments are ridiculous, it just guzzles gas and its costing me a buttload to maintain. I want to live in a city where I don't need a car to get to place

thus, i want to live in copenhagen where i can bike around everywhere
or i want to liv ein a city like Berlin
oh berlin! full of such history and nice humble people
if there's anywhere i can go again, it'll be back to berlin and copenhagen

also one day i want to visit sydney and auckland
i also want to go to singapore and bali
there's so much of the world i want to see!!
and seriously i am rotting away at my desk job.
i just want to be free
spread my wings and fly away

I really need to cut down on spending when going out
just today alone i spent

$3.88 for Quizno's at lunch
$6 for Quizno's dinner
$8 for parking in Hollywood
$10 for admission to the Knitting Factory
$4 for snacks at Mc Donalds

Consider that my income is about $100 a day, I spent about more than 20% on just frivolous stuff!
This has to stop now.

Taking advice from lots of PF blogs I have decided to publicly announce my financial goals: both long term and short term.

Long Term:
1) Own a house - I want one with extra rooms that I can rent out to international students and I can be a host!
2) Save up $2,000,000 in retirement accounts


Short Term:
1) Find a job, or aquire job skills so that I can make atleast $40,000 a year
2) Save up $10,000 for Grad School Expenses
3) Save up $2000 so that my parents can take a trip to Hawaii.

also

my current annual income is $33,5000

i was making $35,000 at my last job